I want to look like this to him..
retouched, but untouched,
perfect nose, subtle smile,
hair, neatly all over the place,
not noticing him memorizing me...
I want him to mentally crop and filter a stupid selfie I sent to him
(because he was on my mind)
And think of me during the night shift,
perfectly "noir" and natural (smile)
And I want to look at him like this...
sleepy-eyed and tired after a long day,
right before I lay my head on his chest
and he makes a corny joke about my little nose.
I want to giggle my way to sleep.
Happy.
Even for a moment...
I want to believe in it again.
